I Don't Live Here Anymore..

I moved into my parent's house a week ago, and it still feels like I'm just visiting. Before Covid struck, I had gathered all of my ducks into a row, so I could look into actually buying a place, but being a lady that could only handle one big life change at a time, I had to put it on hold. In July, I had been offered a new job and decided to focus on that transition. The next thing I knew, it was November, and my lease was up.

I had a decision to make, rush to buy a place or decide to spend another year renting. Honestly it was too big of a decision to make at the time. We don’t realize how much of our plate the pandemic has taken until you have to make life changing decisions. I didn't want, really I couldn’t - do either, so luckily, I had a third option. My parents live in Seattle, they have extra rooms, and they would love for me to live with them.

And to be honest with the pandemic, I hadn't been leaving my apartment or seeing people like I had before COVID, and it was starting to take an emotional toll. I'm a people person. I live for connecting with people at work, after work, and on the weekends. My life has drastically changed because of COVID. I work remotely, get most of my groceries delivered, see my pod maybe once a week, and rarely go outside because I'm paranoid about people not wearing masks. I was living in a box. I was eating, working, relaxing in one room. It was a perfectly fine apartment when I was going into the office every day, but when it turned into my 24 hour/7 days a week place, I felt like I was living in a small box.

So moving home is actually the best thing for me right now. I'm around two people I love that make me laugh and make sure I eat well. I had more space to walk around, a backyard to walk around in without worrying about a mask.

We're also headed into the holidays, so I already knew that I wouldn't be able to see my pod because I wanted to spend the holidays with my parents, and even with testing, the best thing would be for me to quarantine with my folks, so moving in just made sense.

I also know that I'm super lucky to have this option. My mom made an office/lounge area out of one of the rooms, and the other room is my bedroom. Yes, all of my stuff is in the garage; I don't know when I will be exactly moving out, but I have a nice loving place in the meantime, and I am so grateful for that.

If you know if someone is living alone, send them a text, a funny picture or give them a call. If they take COVID seriously, they're not leaving the house, and their world has become a lot smaller, a text does help.

I don’t think I realized just how much the pandemic was taking a toll on me. This move hasn’t been easy though and it’s not because of home life. It’s just I don’t know when I will be moving forward and it’s hard to not be able to plan for a future. All of my plans for 2020 were pushed and now I have to reconfigure them.

I know a lot of us are having to make changes to our life because of the pandemic and I am lucky to be where I am, so instead of focusing on what I cannot change I am try to focus on today. It’s not easy and some day I just want to stay in my sweats watching Harry Potter. Today I am writing this blog post.